Lovesick
She pricked her finger with the needle again, yelping in
surprise and glaring down at the cloth, putting it aside as she
cursed her wound, treating it overly seriously in an excuse to
take a break.
“D’is gets easiah, right?” she pouted, her tiny blue lip
puckered out as she looked to the older orc, whom watched her
movements. Jez was a lot of things, but graceful was not on of
them. She was, in fact, quite clumsy, often stumbling over her
tiny needle, still getting Gromth to thread it for her from time
to time. Gromth simply nodded, grunting a “Dabu,” to her as he
returned to his own work.
She smiled at him with a teasing grin, “ju too serious.” He
looked up at her, then back at his work as she giggled,
returning to her own work. Gromth was often serious with her,
though he did enjoy the company of the cheerful Troll girl, as
much as Gromth could enjoy the company of someone else.
He had offered to teach Jez to sew the day they were fighting
together in Shadowmoon Valley. She had complimented his robe and
always interested in new and powerful clothing, she leapt at the
chance for him to train her.
Since they had begun training, she had often teased him for
being too uptight, giggling girlishly at the frumpy old orc who
was nearly old enough to be her father, as he patiently taught
her to sew. The two of them spending most night’s together,
sewing in near silence, often on a floating island in Nagrand.
Both enjoyed the cool of the air and the quiet nights, but
Gromth pined for Draeka. He spoke of her rarely, never speaking
her name, and only when Jez pried. She knew he was lonely and
missing her. Draeka had barely spoken with him since they
returned to the Horde, Jez knew, and lately had been avoiding
any contact with him.
Gromth was deeply lonely, and Jez often stayed sewing longer
than her attention span would usually allow in order to keep him
company. Zij didn’t usually get home until very late over the
past few weeks anyways, and she craved company herself, and
could only tolerate Zer for so long.
She didn’t mind the imp Gromth kept at his side or the odor of
death and fire that clung to him, or even his gruff and
unsociable demeanor he held about him. There was something about
him that kept her at his side and made her enjoy her time with
him, despite his unhappy silence.
She smiled up at him, the Nagrand light fading, casting his
shadow long on the grass, thunder clapping in the distance. She
eeped playfully, throwing her body into his side, pushing him to
the grass. She laid on her side and smiled at him as his face
went from shock to irritation, his eyes scanning hers. She
simply continued grinning her girlish grin. “Thundah!” she
exclaimed, fake fear in her eyes, her grin turning wicked as he
returned to a sitting position.
She sighed, exasperated, sitting close to his side, their
shoulders touching. She grabbed her needle and cloth, piercing
the fabric in tiny movements. He watched her for a few moments,
no expression on his face, before he grunted and returned to his
own work. The two spent most of the night silent, the thunder
still clapping every once in a while. When her eyes grew tired,
he returned her to her hut in Orgrimmar, before returning to his
cold, damp cave in Azshara. The warmth of it gone since Draeka’s
things had slowly been taken, only a few spare pieces of armour
and a few tiny items left around.
There was no redemption for him, no way for him to earn her
friendship back, her trust, let alone her love.
His lover had dragged him back to the Horde only so that she
could have her freedom from him. She hadn’t spoken with him in
weeks, hadn’t touched him in longer, hadn’t loved him since…
He sighed, his heart heavy as he thought of her. He had given
up. There was no hope for him. Battle was never as enticing as
it was with her, and life wasn’t so worth living without his
mighty Titaness at his side.
Over and over the scene replayed in his mind, his thick hands
wrapping around her neck as he lay atop her, her face
registering shock and then fear as his grip tightened, her eyes
rolling back in her head. He knew that was when he lost her. She
knew it was long before that.
He sat in the cave, his back against the wall, his eyes
flittering, though not yet allowing him to sleep, as their
entire relationship played on endless loop. He always loved her.
As a little girl who used to beat him up, as the teen that stole
away with him and her sister in the night, as the young woman
who fought for the Horde. He did all he could to please her,
failing at every turn, in his eyes. In hers, she did love him,
before…
But he wanted power. Too much power. He became greedy for it,
turning to the darkest magics, the ones that pay in power, but
take everything else. He was convinced she would love him for
his power, and he used it, trying to win her affections, and
failing that, he used his power to take her, to feed her the
blood lust, to bind her to him. But no longer was she the girl
who would beat him up or tell him he was wrong and stupid for
turning to the Fel. Draeka was still the strong warrior, cutting
through dozens of foes, but with him, she was different all
together.
For a while, he accepted this, overjoyed to be welcomed into her
arms at night, but with time it wasn’t enough. The tests he put
her through, the hoops she jumped for him…
Every night, the same thoughts went through his mind, his misery
growing, his eyes growing harder and colder. The orc was
becoming a lifeless shell, lost in his own misery of losing the
one he loved. There was no redemption he could seek, no hope for
the orc warlock who had sacrificed everything he could have had
for the power that no longer brought him joy. He let out a deep
sigh, his eyes turning to her old set of armour, moving it to
the cold floor carefully, running his thick finger down the
front of the steel chest piece. He lay down beside it, wrapping
his arms around the cool metal, spooning into all he had left of
his warrior woman.
~~
Draeka crept into the cave in the dark, walking in cloth items
so as not to wake him. She grabbed a small skinning knife from
the corner of the cave, frowning down at the huddled form,
before taking one of the mageweave blankets he had sewn and
placed it over him before softly touching her lips to his
forehead.
She came every few days to grab something and leave something
else so she’d have an excuse to visit the next night when Zij
returned to Jez. The only time she could bare to see her former
lover was when he couldn’t see her, the pain in his eyes too
much for her to handle. Slowly, she had been spending more and
more time with Zij, spending each night wrapped in his arms, and
though she had never been more genuinely happy, there would
always be a chunk in her heart for Gromth, her first friend, her
first love, her first lover, her first mate.
She sighed again, placing an old axe where the skinning knife
had been, and turned to go, the sun rising over the golden trees
of Azshara. Without casting a glance back to Gromth, she put the
knife on her belt, walking confidentially out to her wolf,
Voktar, smiling at the prospect of another day with Zij, her
heart still heavy with pain, but alight with passion for her new
secret lover.